I was honored to be in the East Oregonian Newspaper in the Lifestyles section and I wanted to share it with you all. I don’t want to explain away the article, I’ll just let you read it. Phil Wright did the story and E.J. Harris took the photos, for me they both did an amazing job. Give me enough time and I could thank them over and over. People keep coming up and telling me how much they enjoyed reading it and getting to know me better by doing so. Alright, here is the link to the great story and pictures that I was honored by.Rosco “Carrico” Crooke by Phil Wright and E.J. Harris of the East Oregonian Newspaper
Gallery opening coming up Thursday night June 4th and running thru June 26th. This should be an amazing time. Lots of black lights and the windows will be sealed to not leak any light inside. This way the glow in the dark paintings will be able to be properly showcased and the black lights are going to be great. Bought lots of equipment just for this occasion. Hope everyone that reads this will stop by either June 4th for the opening or sometime while the show runs until June 26th. Thank you all so much. God is good!
Struggling with my own emotions for years has always had me wondering how emotions change people over the long term. I’ve seen so many people change after the loss of a loved one in various ways. Death is obviously the one people think of the most when it comes to loss, but what about people growing up and moving on or breakup’s or divorce? These are forms of loss for many of us as well and they change us. I’m bringing up loss because when I think of “Emotions” this is the one area that most people understand as being “very emotional.” There is this struggle to not change after losing someone, the more I think about that I realize it’s impossible. People “reach inside you and take a hold of you” and that’s just a fact. When that person leaves “you don’t get to hold onto the part of you they have.” That piece now belongs to them and there isn’t anything you, me, or anyone else can do to change this. Anger, bitterness, jealousy, melancholy, pleasure, pain, and everything else are emotions we are are familiar with and we try to lock many of them away. There are correct times to feel all of these emotions!
I struggle with how people say,”don’t let that bother you, don’t worry about that, don’t let that get you down.” It’s as if we are constantly being instructed to “not feel anything!” I want to feel great, happy, joyful, and on top of the world all the time, but that’s not completely possible. There are moments that come along and “take a stand inside you.” If I try to ignore those moments it just ends up much worse later on. Emotions can be misleading very often, but they aren’t evil and they do have “VALUE” in our lives. The reality is that most friends and family just want everyone around them “at peace” and so they use words to try and make that happen. It takes a patient person to simply “walk with someone through there emotional upheaval.” Most people will not do this, they go into their default mode of “just make the person calm.” Sometimes calm and peaceful isn’t what you should feel. When there is loss, injustice, or evil going on our emotions should be quickened up.
I don’t want to explain this piece away, the people that it was meant for will understand the color and design. This much I will say, “Emotions metamorphosis is like a series of chaotic waves moving through us and changing at any moments notice. It’s filled with up’s and down’s, but as far as the shift in energy is concerned, it’s something that can’t be explained with words. So Art is really the only way of seeing it and making any sense of how emotions change and over time they change us.”
P.S. I know this post is very scattered, frazzled, and messy, but that’s part of the idea. Sometimes it’s good to be raw and all over the place for a bit. Not as a style of life, but without moments of heavy unrefined release we can sometimes collapse inside. I don’t want to collapse inside anymore, so now I do what I have to.
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Thank you so much for your time, Rosco “Carrico” Crooke
Months ago while trying to define, refine, and align my “creating art process” I realized that I needed to surrender to it. There is this unsettling energy that seems to come over me when I want to start the day off creating something. I’ll sit down and try to paint, draw, work with leather, film, or something of this nature and this weird energy will come over me and not want to go away. I almost feel guilty working on art instead of doing something around the house or doing something else in general.
After spending so many years working for someone, it’s like it feels wrong to simply work on something I’m creating. It’s a struggle to “give myself permission” to calm down and create what’s inside me, for a while I was reading books, blogs, and whatever else I could to try and solve this.
Finally one day I realized that I just needed to fix something around the house, do a couple chores or something and then I could relax enough to get started creating. I have a very strong stubborn streak and I think it’s more with myself than anything else. So finally surrendering to the idea of “getting a few other things done first” took me more time than it probably should have.
As a result of that struggle, I started working on this piece “Artistic Infection.” All the time I was trying to “find my process” this image was in my mind. It’s an example of a childlike imagination and infection combined. That’s the type of mindset I think all artists have inside them. They may not think of it like this, but deep down they have an ability to tap into that child-likeness and Art is more of an infection than anything else. When creating Art gets into your DNA, you can’t do very many things to stop it. It’s a good infection, one that can drive you to almost madness and yet lift you up in just a moment. Having an infection to create art is a gift, just learning how to embrace it has been the challenge. If you have that infection inside you, don’t fight it. Learn what your “process” is and “hold on tight!!!!” Do what you have to do in order to make it happen. Figuring out how isn’t easy, but afterwards you’ll have the knowledge to go continue forward.
I very much hope you’ve enjoyed this post
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Thank you so much for your time. Sincerely, Rosco “Carrico” Crooke
Around 10 months went by with this image in my head and yet I wouldn’t let myself work on this piece. Sometimes I get very stubborn about what I’m going to work on first. I had at least 6 other paintings lined up in my mind that I had to get out before I would allow myself to finally get started.
Over the 10 months of waiting it become more clear to me all the time. When I think of passion in any form it always stands out to me as a single cell first. Whether it’s passion for a person, place, idea, or whatever else; it has to start in the smallest form first. This is the smallest form of passion you’ll find. A single cell that represents the complexity, beauty, life and yet chaotic simplicity of overall design; that is how passion really works in us. Passion often feels like “singleness of mind” as to something you want. That singleness is much more complicated than it seems. Why else would people be willing to fight for what they are passionate about and why would they be willing to give things up for that same reason?
Passion is full of color, danger, holes, highs and lows. It’s a more than a feeling, thought, dream, or biological reaction. It’s something that resides inside of us right down at our deepest core. Sometimes passion drives us wild and sometimes we can go completely crazy from our passions. Trying to “manage our passions” is often overdone and yet sometimes needed.
A clear vision of passion is very important to me. It helps with understanding why chasing down a dream is so important and why living without passion “really isn’t living at all.”
I hope you’ve all enjoyed my short post about passion and why I created the painting. This was on my mind and I had to just get it out and share it.
God Bless you and may you embrace your passion for going after life and not just existing
Sincerely, Rosco “Carrico” Crooke
Months ago I could feel doubt trying to creep into my thoughts about my passion for art. Doubt is usually this little voice squeaking in your head that tells you why something isn’t going to work. It has an amazing way of giving you every reason that something is a “bad idea” or “isn’t safe or usually done that way.” It’s with this small quiet voice that doubt has so much power. Finally I knew I needed to create a piece to visualize doubt and be able to move past it. I have always had to visualize things a certain way before I could move on. Now that I’ve embraced painting, it’s allowing me to put that vision into a solid form to be remembered and studied. So I went to work on creating,”The Tree of Doubt.” The East Oregonian Newspaper mentioned this painting recently. Here’s a link to the article
Everything you see in the painting is done for a specific reason. The colors ans shapes I picked for very particular reasons and the shape of the tree is very particular of course to explain the shape do doubt. I don’t like to explain away my pieces by filling in all the blanks and laying out all the info like a technical manual. What I will do is give some information about it and leave the rest to the viewer. Notice that the branches on the tree all aim down and in slightly. That’s because doubt doesn’t let you grow up or out, only down and in to make a person collapse upon themselves. Notice that the base is very small and the roots are hardly there. That’s because doubt keeps you from growing roots as well. You’ll also notice that the tree is tilted slightly as well, almost like the tree is going to fall over. “That’s where doubt always keeps you!!!” Doubt is what leads people to “Exist” and not LIVE! It is merciless in the way it takes a hold of a person and it never wants to surrender. So remember that you can’t make doubt surrender, instead you have to “KILL” doubt! You must resolve yourself to never listening to it and being a destroyer of any doubt that enters your life and the lives of those immediately around you. If you don’t take this approach, a small seed of doubt will start to grow and enter into the Kingdom of your heart and mind again. Doubt, fear, and everything like them are more powerful than we realize. Once I finished this piece I could feel the life in doubt fading away and no longer remaining. I hope that is how anyone that looks at this piece feels and acts after looking at this piece. It might take time to conquer doubt, but it is totally necessary to move forward in life.
Thank you all so much for your time
Any questions or comments please feel free and encouraged to send them.
Thanks again, Rosco “Carrico” Crooke
An idea for a painting that’s been running through my head for a long time now is how a childlike mind must look both physically and spiritually. Knowing how things look really helps me figure things out in many ways. If you can visualize something clearly you might be able to hold onto it or let go of it finally.
While with age comes wisdom, it also brings a calloused mind and sometimes spirit. There is a tendency to think mostly of work, family, friends, and maybe a few fun past times. The room to dream, imagine, and ask questions seems to disappear. A child looks at the sky and wonders how it was painted! An adult looks at it and just enjoys the view or ignores it, so you can see now how the idea of “questioning” is very lost with age. We might think that we’re philosophical about things and trying to make the world a better place and all that. However, the fact remains that in large part we lose the ability to question with a childlike mind. We’re in so far that we can’t step back far enough to ask who and why?
I don’t want to be childish, but I do want to keep a childlike spirit and mindset on some things. Losing all the wonder of the world and what God has created seems horrible. It’s like not being able to appreciate the beauty and design that has gone into every single thing there is. I don’t want to say anything more and confuse the idea for the need of a “childlike mind.” Hope you enjoyed the post, as always feel free to leave your thoughts and ask any questions you may have
Below is a link to a post about creating original paintings that you might enjoy
For many years I felt melancholy and didn’t know what to make of it. When you’re in an emotional fog it’s hard to sometimes recognize and deal with it. It wasn’t until I felt much worse that I realized something was really wrong.
Most people think of feeling melancholy as being,”down in the mouth” or “just not feeling up to par.” It’s more than that and it has a way of completely taking over your life. It renders you useless in many ways. It staggers your thoughts and numbs your emotions. The impact it has is so large and so heavy over time, that it shapes your entire life into a “pallet of yellow lukewarm nothingness with dark gray germ-like thoughts running around inside you.”
I made this painting, “Melancholy Me” as a choice to get it out of my system forever. It’s a reminder to fight against those thoughts and feelings. And more importantly to do things in life that bring me higher in thought and emotion. I realize more and more all the time that you have to find something you love doing and throw yourself into it from deep inside. That action starts to -root out- the negatives and make way for the positives. It starts a cleansing and healing process to overcome things like depression and melancholy.
I hope enjoyed the post and if you ever have issues with feeling melancholy let me know and I’d be glad to talk to you about it. If you have any comments or suggestions, please feel free to share them. Take care and God Bless, Rosco “Carrico” Crooke
P.S. Here is a blog post Color Can Change Everything! that you might find interesting and useful when it comes to fighting melancholy feelings or depression.
I ask myself this question more and more all the time now in different ways “What does art do for anyone?” Great news is that I have my answer to that now and more clearly than ever.
Art breaks up the routine of our lives in a great way!!! I cannot stress this point enough, but I will certainly try.
The daily routine most of us get into can become robotic and set our minds on cruise control. Wake up, shower, eat, say hello to family, go to work, come home, visit a little, eat, visit, and then do some evening ritual before bed.
Sometimes that repetition can lead us to ignore that which we were are around the most and forget we even have it. A loss of appreciation for the simplest of things and for what’s really going on.
I believe Art in many various forms stimulates the mind and opens us up to thinking and more importantly “feeling” again. It might even be because you hate the art and can’t stand it with every ounce of who you are, but at least there is a feeling. I believe good art makes you,”Appreciate what you see, makes you think, and makes you feel.” When all of those things come together it can be inspiring. If it’s only one or two of those things, at least there is some -outside daily life routine stimuli- going on and it’s needed more than ever. If people think that I’m wrong about this, take a look around at how many people suffer from depression, melancholy, lethargy and all the other stuff like it. It’s been shown that people with issues like this respond to art in a very positive way. While others may not exactly have issues like this. They can be elevated in thought and emotion by the experience of Art.
I think more people really like Art and they don’t even realize it. You see it all the time if you really think about what Art is. It may be that just the word “Art” itself triggers something in people to think of the Rich Snobby people eating wine and cheese while laughing at horrible jokes. That’s not what “Art” is and when people see the work itself and not the hoity-toity people around it. I think they truly do appreciate it, even if they won’t admit it.
To summarize this is one shot.
Art breaks up daily routine and breathes life back into. It makes us think, feel, and challenge what we’re doing. It helps us appreciate what we have and what we want. It opens us up!
I hope you enjoyed the post Love to hear any thoughts, comments, shares, or whatever is on your mind. God Bless, Rosco “Carrico” Crooke
Since my mother “Donna Claire Crooke” passed away I’ve been feeling and sorting things out in my head. Knowing what to do with all those feelings and thoughts isn’t always easy. So I finally made a painting about my Mom that captured a bit of who she was. When I first showed it to a couple relatives I think they were very confused and maybe even upset by it.
The reality is that it captures some things about my mom that others probably never really understood. Over the course of her life she lost several children right after child birth. And while my Mom had two children that lived on and adopted others. She never forgot and never stopped feeling that loss. It was always a part of her. It sounds very morbid and sad, but there is something positive about this. I truly believe that all that loss is what helped shape my mother “Donna Crooke” into such a caring and forgiving person. As you may have read in my previous blog, she always opened up her home to strangers and she always forgave those that hurt her. It was like she had an Open Wound almost all her life and helping others was like a band aid. It’s a reminder to me that while I feel the loss of her and other friends and family that have passed away. Those losses are for a reason and that maybe I’m meant to be a bit of a more Open Wound and therefore more helping and caring. As far as the painting goes,”Look right in the center of it.” That orange outline is my mother looking down and if you look closely you’ll see some blue. That blue is one of the children she lost in child birth. The other blue pieces you see in the painting are her other children that she lost along her path in life. While there is great sadness in this piece, it changes under black light and looks like something different. It almost shows the strength that comes from weakness. Parts of this also glow in the dark and it’s a reminder to me how even when the lights turn off, there is something going on in our minds and lives. Making it black light reactive is to showcase that sometimes you need to shine a light on things to truly see what’s going on.
Thank you all so much for reading this post. It’s obviously something special to be able to share something about my mother with you. I hope to paint a very happy picture of my mother soon.