I was honored to be in the East Oregonian Newspaper in the Lifestyles section and I wanted to share it with you all. I don’t want to explain away the article, I’ll just let you read it. Phil Wright did the story and E.J. Harris took the photos, for me they both did an amazing job. Give me enough time and I could thank them over and over. People keep coming up and telling me how much they enjoyed reading it and getting to know me better by doing so. Alright, here is the link to the great story and pictures that I was honored by.Rosco “Carrico” Crooke by Phil Wright and E.J. Harris of the East Oregonian Newspaper
Gallery opening coming up Thursday night June 4th and running thru June 26th. This should be an amazing time. Lots of black lights and the windows will be sealed to not leak any light inside. This way the glow in the dark paintings will be able to be properly showcased and the black lights are going to be great. Bought lots of equipment just for this occasion. Hope everyone that reads this will stop by either June 4th for the opening or sometime while the show runs until June 26th. Thank you all so much. God is good!
Struggling with my own emotions for years has always had me wondering how emotions change people over the long term. I’ve seen so many people change after the loss of a loved one in various ways. Death is obviously the one people think of the most when it comes to loss, but what about people growing up and moving on or breakup’s or divorce? These are forms of loss for many of us as well and they change us. I’m bringing up loss because when I think of “Emotions” this is the one area that most people understand as being “very emotional.” There is this struggle to not change after losing someone, the more I think about that I realize it’s impossible. People “reach inside you and take a hold of you” and that’s just a fact. When that person leaves “you don’t get to hold onto the part of you they have.” That piece now belongs to them and there isn’t anything you, me, or anyone else can do to change this. Anger, bitterness, jealousy, melancholy, pleasure, pain, and everything else are emotions we are are familiar with and we try to lock many of them away. There are correct times to feel all of these emotions!
I struggle with how people say,”don’t let that bother you, don’t worry about that, don’t let that get you down.” It’s as if we are constantly being instructed to “not feel anything!” I want to feel great, happy, joyful, and on top of the world all the time, but that’s not completely possible. There are moments that come along and “take a stand inside you.” If I try to ignore those moments it just ends up much worse later on. Emotions can be misleading very often, but they aren’t evil and they do have “VALUE” in our lives. The reality is that most friends and family just want everyone around them “at peace” and so they use words to try and make that happen. It takes a patient person to simply “walk with someone through there emotional upheaval.” Most people will not do this, they go into their default mode of “just make the person calm.” Sometimes calm and peaceful isn’t what you should feel. When there is loss, injustice, or evil going on our emotions should be quickened up.
I don’t want to explain this piece away, the people that it was meant for will understand the color and design. This much I will say, “Emotions metamorphosis is like a series of chaotic waves moving through us and changing at any moments notice. It’s filled with up’s and down’s, but as far as the shift in energy is concerned, it’s something that can’t be explained with words. So Art is really the only way of seeing it and making any sense of how emotions change and over time they change us.”
P.S. I know this post is very scattered, frazzled, and messy, but that’s part of the idea. Sometimes it’s good to be raw and all over the place for a bit. Not as a style of life, but without moments of heavy unrefined release we can sometimes collapse inside. I don’t want to collapse inside anymore, so now I do what I have to.
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Thank you so much for your time, Rosco “Carrico” Crooke
Months ago while trying to define, refine, and align my “creating art process” I realized that I needed to surrender to it. There is this unsettling energy that seems to come over me when I want to start the day off creating something. I’ll sit down and try to paint, draw, work with leather, film, or something of this nature and this weird energy will come over me and not want to go away. I almost feel guilty working on art instead of doing something around the house or doing something else in general.
After spending so many years working for someone, it’s like it feels wrong to simply work on something I’m creating. It’s a struggle to “give myself permission” to calm down and create what’s inside me, for a while I was reading books, blogs, and whatever else I could to try and solve this.
Finally one day I realized that I just needed to fix something around the house, do a couple chores or something and then I could relax enough to get started creating. I have a very strong stubborn streak and I think it’s more with myself than anything else. So finally surrendering to the idea of “getting a few other things done first” took me more time than it probably should have.
As a result of that struggle, I started working on this piece “Artistic Infection.” All the time I was trying to “find my process” this image was in my mind. It’s an example of a childlike imagination and infection combined. That’s the type of mindset I think all artists have inside them. They may not think of it like this, but deep down they have an ability to tap into that child-likeness and Art is more of an infection than anything else. When creating Art gets into your DNA, you can’t do very many things to stop it. It’s a good infection, one that can drive you to almost madness and yet lift you up in just a moment. Having an infection to create art is a gift, just learning how to embrace it has been the challenge. If you have that infection inside you, don’t fight it. Learn what your “process” is and “hold on tight!!!!” Do what you have to do in order to make it happen. Figuring out how isn’t easy, but afterwards you’ll have the knowledge to go continue forward.
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Thank you so much for your time. Sincerely, Rosco “Carrico” Crooke
Around 10 months went by with this image in my head and yet I wouldn’t let myself work on this piece. Sometimes I get very stubborn about what I’m going to work on first. I had at least 6 other paintings lined up in my mind that I had to get out before I would allow myself to finally get started.
Over the 10 months of waiting it become more clear to me all the time. When I think of passion in any form it always stands out to me as a single cell first. Whether it’s passion for a person, place, idea, or whatever else; it has to start in the smallest form first. This is the smallest form of passion you’ll find. A single cell that represents the complexity, beauty, life and yet chaotic simplicity of overall design; that is how passion really works in us. Passion often feels like “singleness of mind” as to something you want. That singleness is much more complicated than it seems. Why else would people be willing to fight for what they are passionate about and why would they be willing to give things up for that same reason?
Passion is full of color, danger, holes, highs and lows. It’s a more than a feeling, thought, dream, or biological reaction. It’s something that resides inside of us right down at our deepest core. Sometimes passion drives us wild and sometimes we can go completely crazy from our passions. Trying to “manage our passions” is often overdone and yet sometimes needed.
A clear vision of passion is very important to me. It helps with understanding why chasing down a dream is so important and why living without passion “really isn’t living at all.”
I hope you’ve all enjoyed my short post about passion and why I created the painting. This was on my mind and I had to just get it out and share it.
God Bless you and may you embrace your passion for going after life and not just existing
Sincerely, Rosco “Carrico” Crooke
Months ago I could feel doubt trying to creep into my thoughts about my passion for art. Doubt is usually this little voice squeaking in your head that tells you why something isn’t going to work. It has an amazing way of giving you every reason that something is a “bad idea” or “isn’t safe or usually done that way.” It’s with this small quiet voice that doubt has so much power. Finally I knew I needed to create a piece to visualize doubt and be able to move past it. I have always had to visualize things a certain way before I could move on. Now that I’ve embraced painting, it’s allowing me to put that vision into a solid form to be remembered and studied. So I went to work on creating,”The Tree of Doubt.” The East Oregonian Newspaper mentioned this painting recently. Here’s a link to the article
Everything you see in the painting is done for a specific reason. The colors ans shapes I picked for very particular reasons and the shape of the tree is very particular of course to explain the shape do doubt. I don’t like to explain away my pieces by filling in all the blanks and laying out all the info like a technical manual. What I will do is give some information about it and leave the rest to the viewer. Notice that the branches on the tree all aim down and in slightly. That’s because doubt doesn’t let you grow up or out, only down and in to make a person collapse upon themselves. Notice that the base is very small and the roots are hardly there. That’s because doubt keeps you from growing roots as well. You’ll also notice that the tree is tilted slightly as well, almost like the tree is going to fall over. “That’s where doubt always keeps you!!!” Doubt is what leads people to “Exist” and not LIVE! It is merciless in the way it takes a hold of a person and it never wants to surrender. So remember that you can’t make doubt surrender, instead you have to “KILL” doubt! You must resolve yourself to never listening to it and being a destroyer of any doubt that enters your life and the lives of those immediately around you. If you don’t take this approach, a small seed of doubt will start to grow and enter into the Kingdom of your heart and mind again. Doubt, fear, and everything like them are more powerful than we realize. Once I finished this piece I could feel the life in doubt fading away and no longer remaining. I hope that is how anyone that looks at this piece feels and acts after looking at this piece. It might take time to conquer doubt, but it is totally necessary to move forward in life.
Thank you all so much for your time
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Thanks again, Rosco “Carrico” Crooke
It’s been a while since I’ve posted. This year my Mother Donna Claire Crooke passed away. Trying to find a way to talk about it is not easy. She adopted me when I was just days old to give me a chance at life. She was an amazing woman that has left a mark on many people’s lives. Her and my dad Bill Jack Crooke were great parents and showed me love and everything a kid could want. In a way I only feel like I’m starting to grieve. Shock seems to take over with the passing of a loved one. My mind seemed to go on a strange auto pilot and not come out of it for a while. I think God does that for us so we can still manage to provide for ourselves and others around us in a time of need. Mom loved to laugh, go to the movies, read the bible, but mostly help people. She took care of foster kids for over 20 years and then took care of elderly people for over 30. She spent her life opening up her home to strangers that needed help and was always looking for that person that needed her. Sometimes it would drive me crazy how should would give so much and get taken advantage of. Finally I realized that she had the heart of a nurse and God’s love in her to give to others and that wasn’t ever going to change. She would forgive people over and over all the time. I miss her smile and her energy and just her being her. She’s with God now so I don’t feel bad for her, she went very quickly. It just won’t be the same without her here. God is good though and He heals things in different ways all the time. I just wanted to share that with all you. Thank you for taking the time to read this. I hope you have a blessed day God Bless, Rosco “Carrico” Crooke
Every year when the holidays roll around many people get excited or at least pretend to. What I’m finding in myself is for about the past handful of years, holidays are REALLY STRONG reminder of something. That something is that I’m single and being surrounded by couples that are happily enjoying time together, sometimes pushes me in a very certain core way. I love my family and I’m very happy, honored, and blessed to have them. It doesn’t change the fact that I’m alone in a sense. I have God, family, and friends That’s more than many people have and I’m more better off living in America with an opportunity to chase down a dream of mine. All of that is true and yet it doesn’t change being alone. Something you read very early in the bible is God looking down and seeing Adam alone and God knows it’s not good for him to be alone. How can that not stick with someone when they read it? Holidays seem to be now a time of reflecting on all the mistakes I’ve made and why I’m now alone. I have no one else to blame but myself and that’s a fact. Over the years I chose to work a graveyard shift for 14 out of my 36 years of being alive. It’s probably not shocking that women aren’t crazy about being on a graveyard schedule. You can’t take a woman out to very many places a 3:30am, it just doesn’t go over very well. I guess one good thing is that it’s giving me inspiration for several paintings I’m working on. “All things work together for good to them that are called according to God’s purpose, to them that are called according to His name.” So I need to keep that in mind, while there is loneliness now it doesn’t mean it will remain forever. It might be and most likely is that I needed alot of work before I would be ready for the right woman. When I worked for the government I started listening to sermons all through the night at work. Not all the time, but sometimes it would be for long stretches, it was the only thing that kept me a little bit sane. Now I’m about ready to chase a rabbit trail in a story, I’ll save it for some other time. I know that I need to remember to be grateful during the holidays that I have so much family that really loves me. It’s easy to feel sorry for one self, but the truth is I should just feel blessed, because that’s exactly what I am. Blessed,saved,protected,provided, by God Himself and He is always with me. He withholds nothing good from me, all things in His perfect time. What are some of your thoughts on loneliness, God, holidays, any one or all of thee above?
Lately I’ve been meeting new people online and in person and the topic of what I did in the past always comes up. I don’t want to bore people with all the details and the truth is, most of it is a flash. I started a job at a convenience store after I had enough of college and quit. I was 20 years old and found myself on the Graveyard Shift, because of fear I stayed working at this job for about 7 years. That’s right, seven years working at a convenience store on the graveyard shift and somehow I had it in my mind that it was were I needed to be. Truth is I wrapped up a bunch of lies and lived with them to keep me warm. Fear has a way of taking control of you and then you start to rely on it and almost look forward to it. Many people would argue that, but that’s because they haven’t taken the time to think about it. Almost every time you suggest something new to someone they immediately rely on fear to help them sort out their decision making process. People that talk about the pro’s and con’s, that’s a load of crap all the way!!! That’s just another way of talking yourself into or out of something. Have you ever seen the silly little things people will count as a pro? It’s fear, it’s fear, it’s fear all the time. A plane could fall out of the sky and kill me write now as I type this, but why live in the fear of that. Same goes for so many opportunities out there, what if this, what if that, what about him, what about her? All these little things that come to help control ever single choice we make. The problem is “not looking high enough for answers to choices” I mean that in several ways. The first one is simply looking at what you really want! If you have a big dream, why not go after it??? People come up with the most stupid reason why not to go after something. When they do that, they are relying and loving their fear. The fear now is their ally and it’s protecting them from chance of any kind. This makes the person feel comfortable and confident in the choice they’ve taken. I could go on and on, but I need to stop. The one good thing is all this darkness and fear is now coming out in some of my artwork in a positive way.
I said all that because that was me for the 7 years I worked at the convenience store on graveyard shift. Then I finally quit after I couldn’t take the crazy scratch ticket players, crack heads, tweekers, drunks, and overall poopy people,lol. I worked a bit here and there for about 8 months I think, then I went to work as a temp at the post office. Wow!!!!!!!!!!!!! For everyone that thinks they don’t work much at the post office, they are wrong!!!! I can say many bad things about working in that place, but the people in general do work very hard. One reason why it may have been different were I worked was that it was a “processing center” so we had to get mail ready for 50+ other post offices. It was a 24hour operation and we would work 12 hours or more 6 days a week when I started. That was mostly the “casuals” as they called us. Then I got hired on as a PTF (part time flexible) sounds nice doesn’t it,lol? Well, I worked 60+hours a week to start as well. So it was long hard work and I made good money, but I had ZERO life!!!!!! That went on for a few years, then the next few I worked less hours, but it was still graveyard shift and almost impossible to make a life. People don’t really like to get up at midnight and go out for coffee generally So making connections outside of your other graveyarders is almost impossible. I stayed working at the USPS all that time because of fear. I knew in my first year I should quit and I stayed because of the false sense of security it gave. When I went to college it was to learn business so I could have my own someday. And I had always wanted to make movies that would change the world, all those ideas got lost in my fear. Then one day things started to change, but that’s for my next blog post, “When things started to change” You’ve just learned more about Carricocreations and me Rosco “Carrico” Crooke. What about you? Have you ever lived in any kind of darkness for long? Have you ever been controlled by fear? P.S. Here’s a link to a blog post I did for a friend recently. Check it out sometime http://artgroupi.blogspot.com/2013/11/artists-in-their-own-words-rosco-crooke.html
I look forward to your comments about what kind of darkness and fear you’ve been in. It’s something to always be exploring and figuring out, so you can move past it!
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Recently I’ve been working on a video about who artists are and what they really do. There have been so many thoughts rambling around in my head about this and it comes down to two ideas,”it’s all about creating and communicating.” Artists want to create something that they’re thinking and or feeling and communicate by the finished piece itself. The creating is the biggest part of the two piece question and answer. You would think a strong idea would be the start of any piece of art, but many times it seems to come from an overwhelming emotion that wants out. It may not look that way at all to the person looking at the art, but it certainly does for the person that created it. Sometimes the emotion is something that’s been festering for years or something that just recently happened. With all that said, there are times that artists themselves might not even realize why they are making, somehow “it just seemed like the thing to make.” Often times artists are driven to inspire others and on while other times they are trying to drag people down with them. It may not seem that way, but take a close look at the work itself and then get to know the artist. You’ll soon realize there is much truth in that.
So how do some of these people share what’s going on inside themselves? What’s the difference between making something that looks cool and making something that is really being shared from deep within that people would call art? I don’t know that there really is a difference. The more you think about it, the more you come to realize that even the lady that draws what seems to be a simple funny comic strip is sharing something. While it might be funny, that might just be something missing in her life and that’s her way of filling that void or maybe she really is happy and wants to share it, she is in fact an artist that’s creating and communicating. Some of the most beautiful pieces of art can come from a longing for something beautiful, not a thought or emotion of having something beautiful or being beautiful. The more I think about it, the more I’m beginning to think that art isn’t always honest.
People often look at other people(often artists) in the wrong manner for not understanding them. What I’m learning is that I often looked at artists as slackers or just lazy people and I was very wrong for that. The reality is many of them were just trying to create and share what’s going on inside. Sometimes people are very shy and don’t know how to just blab out everything that’s going on, but that’s a good thing. We wouldn’t want everyone to not be shy and we wouldn’t want everyone to just be “going with the flow.” Sometimes art gives that person the necessary tools to share EXACTLY what’s going on with them. More often then not, they want people to understand and receive the artwork and the artist who made it. They just don’t have the tools to say that. I’ll never see something as simple as doodle the same way again, nor the person creating it. People need artists to help challenge them to feel and think. So many people are closed up and are just going about their day. They need art infused wake-up calls for their minds and soul stirring designs and colors for their hearts to open. People need to have the routine of their lives disturbed and if they’re brought before the right piece of art, that can most certainly happen! My name is Rosco “Carrico” Crooke and you just learned more about me and Carricocreations. God is good!
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