Every year when the holidays roll around many people get excited or at least pretend to. What I’m finding in myself is for about the past handful of years, holidays are REALLY STRONG reminder of something. That something is that I’m single and being surrounded by couples that are happily enjoying time together, sometimes pushes me in a very certain core way. I love my family and I’m very happy, honored, and blessed to have them. It doesn’t change the fact that I’m alone in a sense. I have God, family, and friends 
That’s more than many people have and I’m more better off living in America with an opportunity to chase down a dream of mine. All of that is true and yet it doesn’t change being alone. Something you read very early in the bible is God looking down and seeing Adam alone and God knows it’s not good for him to be alone. How can that not stick with someone when they read it? Holidays seem to be now a time of reflecting on all the mistakes I’ve made and why I’m now alone. I have no one else to blame but myself and that’s a fact. Over the years I chose to work a graveyard shift for 14 out of my 36 years of being alive. It’s probably not shocking that women aren’t crazy about being on a graveyard schedule. You can’t take a woman out to very many places a 3:30am, it just doesn’t go over very well. I guess one good thing is that it’s giving me inspiration for several paintings I’m working on. “All things work together for good to them that are called according to God’s purpose, to them that are called according to His name.” So I need to keep that in mind, while there is loneliness now it doesn’t mean it will remain forever. It might be and most likely is that I needed alot of work before I would be ready for the right woman. When I worked for the government I started listening to sermons all through the night at work. Not all the time, but sometimes it would be for long stretches, it was the only thing that kept me a little bit sane. Now I’m about ready to chase a rabbit trail in a story, I’ll save it for some other time. I know that I need to remember to be grateful during the holidays that I have so much family that really loves me. It’s easy to feel sorry for one self, but the truth is I should just feel blessed, because that’s exactly what I am. Blessed,saved,protected,provided, by God Himself and He is always with me. He withholds nothing good from me, all things in His perfect time. What are some of your thoughts on loneliness, God, holidays, any one or all of thee above?
Paint of my face, that’s all I have to say.