New Painting “Bereaved” and why I made it.

Original Painting Bereaved

Since my mother “Donna Claire Crooke” passed away I’ve been feeling and sorting things out in my head. Knowing what to do with all those feelings and thoughts isn’t always easy. So I finally made a painting about my Mom that captured a bit of who she was.  When I first showed it to a couple relatives I think they were very confused and maybe even upset by it.

Painting Bereaved

“Bereaved” a painting all about loss of a loved one. I created this shortly after my Mom died.

The reality is that it captures some things about my mom that others probably never really understood. Over the course of her life she lost several children right after child birth. And while my Mom had two children that lived on and adopted others. She never forgot and never stopped feeling that loss. It was always a part of her. It sounds very morbid and sad, but there is something positive about this. I truly believe that all that loss is what helped shape my mother “Donna Crooke” into such a caring and forgiving person. As you may have read in my previous blog, she always opened up her home to strangers and she always forgave those that hurt her. It was like she had an Open Wound almost all her life and helping others was like a band aid. It’s a reminder to me that while I feel the loss of her and other friends and family that have passed away. Those losses are for a reason and that maybe I’m meant to be a bit of a more Open Wound and therefore more helping and caring. As far as the painting goes,”Look right in the center of it.” That orange outline is my mother looking down and if you look closely you’ll see some blue. That blue is one of the children she lost in child birth. The other blue pieces you see in the painting are her other children that she lost along her path in life. While there is great sadness in this piece, it changes under black light and looks like something different. It almost shows the strength that comes from weakness. Parts of this also glow in the dark and it’s a reminder to me how even when the lights turn off, there is something going on in our minds and lives. Making it black light reactive is to showcase that sometimes you need to shine a light on things to truly see what’s going on.

Original Painting Bereaved

Painting about my Mother Donna Crooke and her loss of children over the course of her life and what it did to her and for her.

Thank you all so much for reading this post. It’s obviously something special to be able to share something about my mother with you. I hope to paint a very happy picture of my mother soon.

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My Mother passed away

It’s been a while since I’ve posted. This year my Mother Donna Claire Crooke passed away. Trying to find a way to talk about it is not easy. She adopted me when I was just days old to give me a chance at life.  She was an amazing woman that has left a mark on many people’s lives. Her and my dad Bill Jack Crooke were great parents and showed me love and everything a kid could want. In a way I only feel like I’m starting to grieve. Shock seems to take over with the passing of a loved one. My mind seemed to go on a strange auto pilot and not come out of it for a while. I think God does that for us so we can still manage to provide for ourselves and others around us in a time of need. Mom loved to laugh, go to the movies, read the bible, but mostly help people. She took care of foster kids for over 20 years and then took care of elderly people for over 30. She spent her life opening up her home to strangers that needed help and was always looking for that person that needed her. Sometimes it would drive me crazy how should would give so much and get taken advantage of. Finally I realized that she had the heart of a nurse and God’s love in her to give to others and that wasn’t ever going to change. She would forgive people over and over all the time. I miss her smile and her energy and just her being her. She’s with God now so I don’t feel bad for her, she went very quickly. It just won’t be the same without her here. God is good though and He heals things in different ways all the time. I just wanted to share that with all you. Thank you for taking the time to read this. I hope you have a blessed day :) God Bless, Rosco “Carrico” Crooke

Mom Donna Crooke in a tie dye

My Mom Donna Crooke in a tie dye I made for her. She loved wearing this and shocking people with it. It wasn’t her usual type of clothing to wear. She thought it was lots of fun and made her feel good to have it on.